A pleasant dream or A nightmare??

A Life to have Purpose, to have a Meaning, to have new Beginning..


Have you ever felt the world crushing down all at once on you?
Have you ever felt the need to succumb to the darkness?

Have you ever felt that everything you do has no meaning nor direction?
Have you ever felt that you don't feel to move forward?

Have you?


For me.. I have.. Many times..
Many times I just want to finished it all by running away or worst.. by ending my life..
I came to a point that I don't have a purpose in life anymore..
I don't have direction nor path to walk on to..

I'm giving up in Life..
The people I trust.. abandoned me, the people I care, never really care about me..
The people I let in my heart, broke it, leaving me with pieces that I cannot fix..
The people I'm willing to sacrifice my life for them.. Were the same people who took my life..

Now.. I'm dying inside.. My heart is barely hanging on.. Soon.. I will be no longer the person I used to be..

The New Beginning can be dark or can be light..

No Matter what.. I hope that I will be able to wake up to this nightmare called Reality..

DREAM.. HEARTBEAT..

Dreams..Nightmares..

They are the same.. pleasant or unpleasant, sweet or bitter, fantasy or reality.. light or dark

They exist through are mind, they were present inside us.. but what if it happens? like deja vu..

Mostly of my dreams happen in reality whether nightmares or sweet dreams and mostly I dream in another people's body and saw things that will happen to that person or people..

  I can see it through dreams.. But I just brushed it off.. Never caring, I thought it's just a dream and it will not happen.. I'm wrong.. it did happen.. lots of it.. a year or months or days after i dreamed of it.. It's scary at first, I'm able to accept it but don't really know what to do..

God let me saw everything ahead.. but don't really know what to do about it..

To forgive and forget or to forgive alone?

There is a saying.. "To forgive is to forget".. such a cliché, but is it true? Or it's simply forgive but not forget?

I remember when I was in a youth camp, there is a certain topic about forgiveness.. I suggestively said that we should include the saying and as I presenting it.. A professional man with such authoritative voice said that "you can forgive but you cannot forget".. I was shock, hurt and disappointed.. but then I think why did he said that?, is there something he cannot forget yet he forgive? Or he still cannot forget because he didn't totally forgive it?

I'm still confuse.. yet all I know and learned that God forgive and erase it all.. meaning He forget and Love us..

I forgive and forget it.. those painful memory is fading.. fading.. taken away.. I will not allow myself to indulge in bitterness and unforgiveness.. I thank God for giving me such understanding and a heart.. I don't want to waste my life in negative thoughts, negative emotions..

It's better to shut down all emotions than feel it and put myself in danger.. <3

Friends (ღ˘◡˘ღ) ♪＼(*＾▽＾*)／＼(*＾▽＾*)／ ＼（＾○＾）人（＾○＾）／ ✿ܓ

having people that know you more than yourself is a blessing from God..

people that stay through ups and down.. loving people that can take your crazy ideas, who can laugh, cry, helping you, rebuking you and support you all the way.. they help me to be me..

God become the center of our friendship and it made us strong and matured women, His daughters..

The best ever Friends!..

these are the people whom I share my life with...

these were taken at Baguio City during our Church retreat..

Full of memories..

at SM Baguio City enjoying the Ice cream

Memory shared and every situation we encounter, we must never lose hope for their are people who you can turn to.. and of course, Our Lord God Almighty..

I'm thankful that God made them my friends and family..

Thank you Nesse/Mars/Girl/Teh.. (◕‿◕✿)

Love for FAMILY (heart's day)

It's better late than never.. (｡◕‿◕｡)

the picture below is my Family in Christ..

We are celebrating the Love day..

An awesome group date.. lots of laughter and foods! 

I will never forget this beautiful moment..

Thank You to our Pastors and Young people..

despite of tiredness and exhaustion from work, truly it gives me enjoyment.. 

Special Thanks to the Lord Almighty, He provided all the blessings.. 

until next.. ❀◕ ‿ ◕❀

Loving the Unlovable ^-^

Had you experienced to hate a person very much?... It's like you want to curse and ruin her/his life?..

Well.. you're not alone in this world.. But..

I know you will not agree to me about this, but just think for it..

We should love those people and not to hate them..

At first I don't agree on that too.. but as I heard it repeatedly to our "Pastora"..
It struck me.. It's as if God is speaking to me personally.. I realize that it is a command that I must obey..

And as I read the bible.. again the command that I must love the unlovable.. It is written in Matthew 5:44

Then it reflect me.. how can I be love, if i don't give love.. and it is tiring to hate people, it only cause so much pain..

That's why I obey my God.. Because He knows the best for us..

 Trust and Believe God.. ^-^

act of kindness

Hi everyone!

it's late.. but I want to share my short experience today..

I always encounter countless people here in my hometown everyday..

I was touched and glad to know that there is still kindness within our society..


It happened when the public vehicle I rode stop on a church and a young woman get in and sit near the door of the multicab. Not far from the church an old woman, may be aging 60, also rode in our cab.
The younger woman suddenly move in to give way for the old woman to sit near the door in giving rspect and in return the old woman paid the fare for the young woman..


It was a small act of kindness but it feel so great to see, that up to now there are still people who exercise it.
I always said to my students that they should always respect and show kindness to others, especially to older people..
but the generation that they are with today is somewhat corrupted, but I still hoping and praying that they listen and do what is right..


That is all for now..

God Bless!